Friends, it’s been one of those days where one cup of coffee just didn’t cut it. Baby girl woke up multiple times during the night last night, which has been the norm the past few weeks. I’d gotten spoiled with a baby who started sleeping 8 hours through the night at 4 weeks old!! Well, no worries, I have now joined the ranks of the sleep-deprived mamas, even if I’m a tad late with my arrival.
On the bright side, the little stinker wakes up SOOO happy every morning that it’s impossible to be grumpy at her for more than a second. The moment I walk into her line of vision (usually this is around 6:30am) she’s grinning up at me from her crib and jabbering on, always with one hand in her mouth, as if she’s got a lot to catch me up on since our 4:30am pow-wow. Couldn’t think of a better way to start my day, even if it’s a tad earlier than I would have preferred. 🙂
Since it was Tuesday, we headed off to BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) this morning! Rob and I used to be a part of the young adults BSF class here in St. Louis (we were both leaders when we were dating/engaged and then I was a leader again last school year too) but this year I’ve joined the all-women’s class so that Lydia can go to the little nursery there. The ladies in the nursery are so sweet and shower Lydia with love. They sing Bible songs to the babies and tell them a Bible story while their mamas get to have some distraction-free time to study God’s Word together.
BSF is such a breath of fresh air to my heart every week. Fellowship with godly women who inspire me in my faith journey. Talking with other mamas and being reminded that I’m not alone in this motherhood thing. Studying God’s Word. Grace and life from that Word washing over my soul.
Today, during the large-group teaching time (which follows the small-group discussion), one thought especially stood out to me from the message:
“Do you consult God before making plans, or do you make plans and then ask or expect God to bless them?”
This was convicting for me as I thought about it and realized that most often I just make my own plans without really much prayer. Of course, Rob and I pray about big decisions like buying a house, applying for jobs, etc., but when it comes to those smaller, day-by-day decisions, I tend to think I can figure that stuff out without God’s input. I don’t do this consciously, but I unintentionally leave Him out of the decision-making process.
I was challenged by the message today to slow down enough in my day-to-day decisions and plans to ask God what would be best and ask Him to guide my steps. If someone had suggested this idea to me several years ago, I would have thought it was a little extreme to actually present these kinds of things to God or to even think that He cared about them. But the more I’ve learned about God and His character, the more I believe that He DOES care about even the littlest details of our lives. Not in an overbearing, control-freak kind of way. I don’t think He’s looking down from heaven and wanting to micro-manage every moment of every person’s day or take away their free will. But I think He’s like a loving father, who cares genuinely about his children, who wants to hear our desires, dreams, and longings. He wants to help us through the stressful parts of the day and the struggles we have with uncertainty about the future. He wants to be involved in even the most mundane parts of our lives because he truly cares that much about each of us. It blows my mind when I really stop and think about it. He loves each of us so much.
My goal for moving forward is to involve God more fully in my decisions, both big and small. Rob and I have been reading through 1 Samuel together and in 1 Samuel 3 is the story of Samuel learning to hear God’s voice. The priest tells Samuel, who is just a young boy at the time, that when he hears the voice calling to him, he should reply, “Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening!” It’s such a beautiful picture of being open and eager to be led by God. So often I am too “busy” with the hectic speed of life to really slow down and be open to God’s guidance. Especially as we enter the holiday season – the most hurried and frenzied time of the year – I want to remember to slow down, be present in each moment, and be ready to follow God’s guidance every day.
I’d love to hear from you!
Do you struggle with slowing down and being ready to listen to God?
How can you be intentional this week to involve God in your decisions and plans?